"Again he said, “What shall we say the kingdom of God is like, or what parable shall we use to describe it? It is like a mustard seed, which is the smallest of all seeds on earth. Yet when planted, it grows and becomes the largest of all garden plants, with such big branches that the birds can perch in its shade.” (Mark 4:30-32 NIV)
So often I feel so small. So tiny and fragile and vulnerable. So weak
and unable to do anything, that this world around me is too overwhelming and
more than I could ever bear. But I enter a season now of growth, once the
tiniest seed of all the seeds of the earth, God has planted me and caused me to
grow. And as I expand-I become more and more alien to myself. Who am I now? I'm
not who I was, but I'm still more and more myself. I am a me I have never
known. My reach and my being is growing much more than that tiny seed I have
always known myself to be. I want to bury my head back in the soil and hide,
but I must admit that the view is increasingly clearer and more beautiful than
I have ever imagined. I must cling onto the true vine and trust him, for he
makes my feet light like a deer and shows me which way I should go. To you my
Lord I surrender my whole being-even if I don't understand who I am anymore or who I
am becoming.
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